[Verse 1]
Defeated by the voices in my head
They testify I’m not enough
I chase the ache, I try to learn love
I look for You, but You feel hidden
A fire once near, now I only see it when I shut my eyes
[Pre-Chorus]
I become the words I fear are true
Running from the shadow of my shame
Reaching for the hem of what You promised
Trying to believe I still have a name
[Chorus]
I tried to cut myself loose, but You stayed my hand
Went too deep in the water, forgot how to stand
When I try to pray, it comes out a cry
I’m not in my right mind, You don’t turn away
I’m not in my right mind, but You still stay
Hold me while I break
[Verse 2]
I rehearse my sins like they’re scripture
Every failure memorized
I measure grace like it’s running out
Still You don’t leave when I hide
[Pre-Chorus 2]
I’m tired of being my own accuser
Tired of proving I don’t belong
If You’re the truth I’ve been running from
Why does mercy sound like a song?
[Chorus]
I tried to cut myself loose, but You stayed my hand
Went too deep in the water, You pulled me back
When I try to speak, it comes out a cry
I’m not in my right mind, You don’t turn away
I’m not in my right mind, but You still stay
Hold me while I break
[Bridge]
Every step falters, every thought bends
Faith feels thin, but it hasn’t ended
If I’m the wound, be the healer
If I’m the doubt, be the answer
Who could love me this way?
Who would stay?
[Final Chorus / Outro]
I tried to cut myself loose, but You stayed my hand
Went too deep in the water, You made me stand
Every prayer’s a scream, but You hear the sound
I’m not in my right mind, You’re still around
I’m not in my right mind, but grace is found
Even here… You’re found