Mercy Sounds (Like a Psalm)

Defeated by the voices in my head

They testify I’m not enough

I chase the ache, I try to learn love

I look for You, but You feel hidden

A fire once near, now I only see it when I shut my eyes

I become the words I fear are true

Running from the shadow of my shame

Reaching for the hem of what You promised

Trying to believe I still have a name

I tried to cut myself loose, but You stayed my hand

Went too deep in the water, forgot how to stand

When I try to pray, it comes out a cry

I’m not in my right mind, You don’t turn away

I’m not in my right mind, but You still stay

Hold me while I break

I rehearse my sins like they’re scripture

Every failure memorized

I measure grace like it’s running out

Still You don’t leave when I hide

I’m tired of being my own accuser

Tired of proving I don’t belong

If You’re the truth I’ve been running from

Why does mercy sound like a song?

I tried to cut myself loose, but You stayed my hand

Went too deep in the water, You pulled me back

When I try to speak, it comes out a cry

I’m not in my right mind, You don’t turn away

I’m not in my right mind, but You still stay

Hold me while I break

Every step falters, every thought bends

Faith feels thin, but it hasn’t ended

If I’m the wound, be the healer

If I’m the doubt, be the answer

Who could love me this way?

Who would stay?

I tried to cut myself loose, but You stayed my hand

Went too deep in the water, You made me stand

Every prayer’s a scream, but You hear the sound

I’m not in my right mind, You’re still around

I’m not in my right mind, but grace is found

Even here… You’re found