The night you hung yourself, felt like I hung myself too, 8 months pregnant, only me and me in the room, dissociating, put my mind on vacation
I thought you’d always be there but I looked around and you were no where.
I put on mask of strength knowing it wasn’t true but now I had a family except it felt like no one was in the room,
damn
and you should have known I needed you too
but you were way too broken to see anyone else in the room,
Damn
I saw ghosts of you on my walls
Spirits
You were the only one I wanted to call but you were dead
You couldn’t hear it
I thought of you the first night I held my son,
Everyone else was there but you were the one I needed
My best friends dead
They prescribed me a med but it didn’t get close to what I needed
They say suicide an easy way out,
Shits not been easy for me,
Never thought this how it would be,
My kids will never meet you,
Hope they don’t end up like you,
Shit,
I hope they don’t end up like me neither,
But I hope they laugh how you did,
Hope they love like you did,
Shit I even hope they cry like you did,
Cause you were an open book
You thought no one wanted to read
But we were reading
Loves all you needed
But you had it
You had me
You had your family too
We all loved you
Never forget you
Laugh it off like yeah it’s coo
Robin
You’re still loved here on earth
But you needed a rebirth
That’s between god and you
I’ll miss you till I see you again
You’ll always be my best friend