Back to bed

Im going back to bed cause I wanna be dead and that’s the closest I can get to it

When I’m up I’m all in my head, I’m all off my meds, nsaids didn’t do it for me

When I’m sleeping I’m dreaming, I know it’s the closest I’ll get to this,

the dreams I once dreamed feel empty, lost in my souls abyss

A place no lights ever been and once you fall in there’s no coming back to life,

Damn I wish I could go back to being a wife,

I lost the house, the husband, the dream

I took all this pain for the team cause,

I didn’t want the kids to see it, but I know that they did, heard us screaming, went to the room and they hid

Didn’t want to add to their pain, hope someday their glad, unashamed, but right now their sad at this change, wish me and their dad stayed the same,

Drowning my sorrows only brought me more,

I wanted to even the score,

Now he calls me a whore,

I know our love is no more,

I’m broken straight down to my core,

The moment my eyes open, I feel so broken, for peace I am still hoping

I’m feeling like robin and Mac, hope someday I don’t end up like that

People I show love to,

Never show me it back,

That’s why I feel alone in this world, feel like I have no home in this world

So I put on a mask, take a drink out my flask, act like I’m up to the task, and fake it

sometimes I don’t think I’ll make it

I keep going on

Pretending I’m strong

I’ve been tired so long

It’s time to rest my head,

The songs over I’m going back to bed