Guilty pleasures call, in the silence I withdraw
Sometimes I hate being inside my own skin
Trying to find my ground, but I’m lost in myself
I might have lost the way to come back in
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna quit, ‘cause I love the high
Messing with my mind, making me feel alive
Looking for a girl to turn inside out
To piece me together, to enjoy that high
Then corrupt one another
In the chaos, I find my art
She finds my darkest secret, and she didn't judge—
She became a part of it, that's how we fell in
Love, love, love
[Bridge]
No rehab, no meetings, just wandering alone
Seeking something darker
Suddenly I found someone just as curious as me
She’d get wild, pretend to be mean
See those things in my mind, hurt just a little
But she enjoyed it, and I enjoyed her
As we guided each other to new discoveries
About our new shared secret, a taboo pleasure for her
When she came and went vocal in that uninhibited energy
She suddenly became the most beautiful woman I had ever seen
Guilt and thrill collide in a game I can’t withdraw
Trying to understand, trying to see through it all
Holding each other up so that neither of us fall
[Outro]
Spinning in this storm, I’m trying to find my way
Lost between the lines where shadows tend to stay
No desire to keep a secret between us, just craving to be set free
In the depths where I could not go on my own
She got so loud, I put my lips on hers to quiet her down
As soon as we were back at home
And the dark had gone, that was when she’d ask so sweetly:
"Baby, do you know what I want? Don't you know what I need right now?
I want you to go down..."
And my mind was blown
So hard to imagine how good and sweet she tasted
And the way she would bend and moan
When we were back home, once a week I expected
I gave her the keys, asked her to make a little thing for me
On her phone, just in case she had the desire or opportunity
When and if she was alone
She said, "As long as we have love, love, love
I will do anything that will make you happy."
And I leaned in and said, "Baby, you already do."