Not Enough

I bend myself into pieces

Just to fit where you stand

Every smile I’m wearing

Feels like sand in my hands

I rehearse every word

So I don’t say it wrong

But I still end up quiet

Like I don’t belong

I try to be softer

I try to be brave

But the mirror keeps asking

Why I still need to change

I’m never enough for you

No matter how hard I try

I keep bleeding my truth

While you don’t see the fight

I’m tired of reaching

Just to fall through your hands

If loving me’s heavy

I don’t know who I am

I carry the silence

Like it’s proof I’m to blame

Every pause feels like failure

Every breath feels the same

I give you my best days

You get my last light

And I’m left in the dark

Asking what’s wrong with my life

Some nights get so loud

I scare myself with my thoughts

But I’m still here breathing

Even when it feels like I’m not

I’m never enough for you

I fade when you pull away

I keep begging for reasons

To believe I should stay

If I disappeared

Would the ache finally end?

I don’t want to be broken

I just want to feel held

If there’s a place I’m allowed

To be weak and be real

I hope I find it someday

I hope I learn how to heal