Waiting on you

You say you’re trying, I see the weight

Every promise bends when you hesitate

I hold my breath every time you pull away

Tell myself tomorrow you’ll finally stay

You look at me like I’m almost home

Like you want me but you’re scared to be known

I give you space, I give you time

But I’m breaking trying to read your mind

I don’t need perfect, I don’t need safe

I just need you to choose me the same

I’m standing right here, heart in my hands

While you decide who you think you are

I’m waiting on you

To give me everything

Not pieces, not maybes, not half of your heart

I’m waiting on you

To stop being afraid

To love me out loud instead of in the dark

I’d give you the world if you’d just let me in

But I’m tired of waiting on you to begin

I smile when you leave, then I fall apart

Count all the nights you live in my thoughts

I defend you when they say I deserve more

‘Cause loving you feels worth bleeding for

You say you care, I know it’s true

But care don’t hold me when I miss you

I need your hands, I need your fight

Not just your words at the end of the night

I don’t need easy, I don’t need small

I need to know I’m not optional

I’m giving you all that I am

While you’re still afraid to stand

I’m waiting on you

To give me everything

Not silence, not distance, not almost enough

I’m waiting on you

To finally choose me

To love me like losing me would hurt too much

I’d break all my walls just to let you in

But I’m tired of waiting on you to give in

What if I’m right here at the end of your fear

What if the thing you’re running from is real

I’m not asking you to save me

Just don’t make me wait forever to be seen

I’m scared too, but I still stay

I still reach for you anyway

I’m waiting on you

But I’m getting tired

Of holding a love that won’t hold me back

I’m waiting on you

But I’m burning quiet

Watching my heart crack where you won’t step past

I love you enough to let you choose

But please don’t ask me to keep waiting on you

If you ever decide you’re ready to fall

I’ll still be the one who loved you through it all

Just don’t let me be

The girl who waited

And never got everything.