Cracks

I slipped in through your cracks

But not into your heart

I knew you didn’t want this

(And I’m trying not to)

I knew it from the start

who you are and the smile you carry

With your tight jean shorts

Makes it impossible not to think of you

I wish this was easier but don’t we all

This’ll be a long hard fall

You’re all around me but no where to be found

Maybe things would be better If I made no sound

When it’s right or wrong and I’m wrong around you

Why can’t I get it through my head that we will never be together

You’re on my mind and in my heart, and a part of you will never leave me.

I wonder if I should walk away and make this easier

You said it’s not me, and I know that’s the truth but I can’t help but but feel like there’s something else too

You dropped me harder than a bad habit

Now my hearts broken on the floor

I probably deserve it

I’ve done it before

My mind is telling me to move on

But my heart is sore

I learned from you, you have to say it right.

Even when that means, leaving it at goodnight

You’ve opened my eyes but narrowed my view

You’re probably trying not to hurt me, so i can’t hurt you.

You said you loved me after all.

But will you be there to cushion the fall

Things started off great

I lost where it all went wrong

Now I’m sitting here writing this song

When I can’t do it right, no matter what at all

Maybe it’s time I realize That’s not who we are

An earthquakes come and the ground between us is uneven,

You said I was your type, and you acted the part.

We talked everyday that we were apart

Now we’re back together and I’m pulling teeth

I think neither of us realized who the other actually was

And the realization of that is killing our buzz

I see your eyes gaze at me

You’re words and actions don’t match

You burn my skin like an egg frying on a hot sidewalk

I feel inferior because I don’t know how to act around you.

I want to be myself and the person you want me to be

I’m stepping up, steeping up to the tippy top

Maybe that’s when all these games will finally stop

The lingering question of if you’ll be mine

That’ll be a question that’s answered by time

You can only beat a dead horse for so long

But I respect myself more than you do

So I have to move on

I have to keep on stepping

You put me in a box

Up upon your wall

Right next to the others

You stopped noticing me

Not before too long

I’m sorry that it didn’t work out

I thought this could be something

Something truly amazing

But you can only beat a dead horse for so long

You’ve changed my life forever

I know I’m not the same

Tho I am what you made me

I’m not playing this game

So what happened?

Did I not step up enough for you to see the me you wanted me to be?

Is it just like that?

The ground so uneven it’s frustrating

The constant thought of you in my mind is unbearable

I want you out like you wanted me.

But you’re engrained in me and I can’t help it.

I wish I was more like you

So I could forget you too