Spinning in Doubt

Caught in the spin again, lost in the noise

Seems every damn time, I just want out

But I’m stuck on repeat, breaking my mind

Tired of these ghosts, make ’em shut the fuck up

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Thought I found some clarity, a flicker of hope

But it’s just a goddamn mirage I chase and cope

Words get tangled, meaning lost in translation

Frustration’s a bitch, feeding my damn damnation

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I try to speak, but the silence screams louder

Each moment’s a battle, I’m losing power

Caught between what I feel and what I say

Drowning in doubt, wishing I could walk away

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Spin me around, this circle’s fucking endless

Heart in pieces, feeling so defenseless

Clarity’s a lie I keep bloody chasing

In this storm, I’m just fucking waiting

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Memories like knives, stabbing through my skin

Pretending I’m fine, but I’m buried deep within

Toxic patterns, they’re licking at my heels

Struggling to breathe, tell me what’s real?

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I try to speak, but the silence screams louder

Each moment’s a battle, I’m losing power

Caught between what I feel and what I say

Drowning in doubt, wishing I could walk away

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Spin me around, this circle’s fucking endless

Heart in pieces, feeling so defenseless

Clarity’s a lie I keep bloody chasing

In this storm, I’m just fucking waiting

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Running in circles, same scars, same pain

Different day, but it’s all the same rain

I reach for peace but it slips through my hands

Like I’m trapped in a loop I don’t understand

Voices keep echoing, tearing me down

Lost in the static, I’m starting to drown

Try to rebuild but it all falls apart

Every reset just breaks me harder at heart

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Break these chains, shatter the illusion

Fighting my demons, seeking my solution

The cycle repeats, I can’t break free

But I won’t surrender, won’t let it defeat me

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(Why can’t I breathe?) I’m choking on doubt (let me out)

(Why can’t I leave?) I’m trapped in it now (stuck here)

(Echoes repeat!) they’re stuck in my brain (too loud)

(Driving me insane!) I’m losing my way (fade out)

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Spinning in doubt, lost in the abyss

Searching for answers in this chaos I miss

But maybe someday, I’ll find my way

Until then, I’ll stay lost in the fray

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Still hear the voices when everything’s quiet

Fighting myself, and I can’t even hide it

Every reflection feels broken and bent

Like I’m stuck in a war that was never meant

But deep in the noise, there’s a spark I can feel

A piece of myself that’s starting to heal

So even if I’m still lost in the spin

I swear one day… I’ll break out of it