Unspoken

I went to a therapist, she labeled my brain, told me to take medicine so I don’t feel the same.

I’ve been the most sane while going insane, do you relate to this pain?

I’ve been the abused and the abuser,

And somewhere in between I realized I’m a fucking loser,

I’ve lost every battle , trying to suppress my mind, stuck in a constant state of isolation.

Lord, I don’t understand the lesson.

I’ve been lost for so long, I need you to point me in the right direction.

See, nobody cares.

The emptiness will eat your soul, swallow you hole and have you realize you’re all alone.

I took a Xanax to relax my mind, it happens from time to time, until it became the only solution to keep me alive.

My mother said it’s just a phase, that one day I’ll wake up and I’ll be okay.

My father said to sleep off the panic attacks.

My sister said to bottle up my emotions until it’s over flowing.

I was never a gift, more like a curse roaming this earth, never finding my destination. Running from my problems cause the resolutions are to hard to bare.

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and felt scared?

went to a therapist, she labeled my brain, told me to take medicine so I don’t feel the same.

I’ve been the most sane while going insane, do you relate to this pain?

I’ve been the abused and the abuser,

And somewhere in between I realized I’m a fucking loser,

I’ve lost every battle , trying to suppress my mind, stuck in a constant state of isolation.

Lord, I don’t understand the lesson.

I’ve been lost for so long, I need you to point me in the right direction.

Fuck you, fuck her, and fuck him, for making me believe I’m less than.

Nothing eases my mind, traveling through time with no recollection of who I am.

What do you see when you look at me?

A fucked up tragedy of a being, trust me I feel the same, but in the end I’m the only one to blame.

It’s such a shame.

I went to a therapist, she labeled my brain, told me to take medicine so I don’t feel the same.

I’ve been the most sane while going insane, do you relate to this pain?

I’ve been the abused and the abuser,

And somewhere in between I realized I’m a fucking loser,

I’ve lost every battle , trying to suppress my mind, stuck in a constant state of isolation.

Lord, I don’t understand the lesson.

I’ve been lost for so long, I need you to point me in the right direction.