I feel it all

I feel it all…

Before I’m ready

Before I know what’s real

My chest gets tight

My thoughts get heavy

And I don’t know what to feel

I’m fine—

No, I’m not

I was… five seconds ago

Now my heart’s loud

My hands are shaking

And I don’t know where to go

I try to slow it down

But it’s already here

I feel it all…

Too deep, too fast

Love and fear hit at the same damn time

I feel it all…

No filter, no guard

Every word cuts straight to the heart

I’m not choosing this weight I hold

I just feel it all…

I feel it all

I hear the silence

Between your words

It tells me things you didn’t say

I replay moments

Over and over

Trying to make the feeling go away

I hate that I need reassurance

Even when nothing’s wrong

I hate that my mind

Can turn a second

Into a night that feels too long

I know it’s not fair

But it’s honest

I feel it all…

Too deep, too fast

Love and fear hit at the same damn time

I feel it all…

No filter, no guard

Every word cuts straight to the heart

I’m not choosing this weight I hold

I just feel it all…

I feel it all

I’m trying…

I swear I am

To pause

To breathe

To not let the moment drown me

Sometimes I do it right

Sometimes I fall apart

And I hate how much it hurts

To have a heart like mine

I feel it all…

Still learning how

To stay when my emotions rise

I feel it all…

But I’m here, I’m real

And I’m fighting for a quieter mind

I don’t need to be made whole

I just need time…

’Cause I feel it all

Yeah…

I feel it all