Saving the little me

My chest feels heavy and my thoughts are scattered

Inside I’m screaming and my heart is shattered

I sit in silence but no one seems to know

I must be good at smiling now and never letting this show

I want to run and am screaming inside someone save me

I feel like I’m drowning and can’t breathe in this deep sea

Emotions rush over me like waves beating tirelessly over a stone

I’m sitting amongst the crowds but still somehow I feel all alone

It’s like watching the world from behind a glass

Wanting to engage but unable to make it past

I want to feel real but I feel more like a thought

Like I’m an imaginary person in someone else’s plot

Definitely not the main character in my own book

I’m just the girl in the back corner that never gets the second look

One day I’ll look back and be glad I was born

But today in this moment I just feel broken, tattered and torn

I just want to scream but I sit and smile because,

I was taught this is what a proper young lady does

I just want someone to see me for who I am and say

I love you, you’re safe and you were meant to be this way

I have grown now into who I was meant to be

The grown adult before you, was built in order to protect the little me