Lost My Faith, Lost My Feelings

Was it ever good…?

Or was I just addicted to the way you felt?

Pullin’ me out of touch,

Then leaving me with someone I don’t know myself…

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You kept me fallin’, just how I wanted,

Smilin’ in rooms that you turned haunted.

You were the one I swore I’d never lose—

But losing you felt like losing truth.

Prayin’ to God for a soul to take,

How could an angel make me feel pain?

Led me along just to walk away,

Broke both my feet so my heart won’t chase.

Down on my knees but I still can’t breathe,

Say it’s for the best—don’t lie to me.

Under every breath it’s not what it seems,

Maybe I was stupid for believing in dreams.

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Girl, you had me—yeah, it’s obvious.

Staying up thinking how you’d break us.

Picking up pieces you shattered again,

Funny how fools rush in… and I must’ve been.

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Now I don’t give a fuck

About you—yeah, it sucks.

It’s hard to write a song

When you’re not breaking my heart enough.

I don’t know where to start

When there’s no hole in my heart—

Guess it’s easier to be hurt

And make music in the dark.

Losing you felt like I lost my faith,

But now I’m finding me in the empty space.

How could an angel leave me this way?

But I don’t give a fuck today.

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I lost my faith in the face of the girl I’d see—

She walked away and blamed it all on me.

Had me going crazy, blinded, weak—

Now I’m waking up from the hell you speak.

You hit my phone when you’re bored at night,

Try to pull me back into your light.

Say you miss me just to twist the knife—

You only love me when it feels right.

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Say those three words just to make me weaker,

Back when I was too young to see deeper.

Reel me back in so you break me down,

But I’m done being dragged around.

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Now I don’t give a fuck

About you—yeah, it sucks.

It’s hard to write a song

When you’re not breaking my heart enough.

I don’t know where to start

When there’s no hole in my heart—

Guess it’s easier to be hurt

And make music in the dark.

Losing you felt like I lost my faith,

Prayin’ to God for a soul to take.

How could an angel make me feel pain?

But I don’t give a fuck today.

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Maybe you loved me… in a way that kills.

Maybe I stayed ‘cause I loved the thrill.

But every memory still burns my skin—

You made me a fool… but I won’t fall again.

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Now I don’t give a fuck

About you—guess I’m up.

I finally wrote a song

And it wasn’t about us.

I don’t know where to start—

But at least it’s not your scars.

And it’s easier to heal

Than make music in the dark.

Losing you felt like losing faith,

But now I’m stronger in the empty space.

How could an angel leave me this way?

But walking away

Saved me today.

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Was it ever good…?

Or was it just the way you felt like a drug?

I’m done being haunted by what you wanted.

I lost you—