Verse 1
I been carryin’ hurt that don’t fade with time…
Smile on my face while my soul flatlines… (flatlines)
People keep askin’ why I stay so quiet,
‘Cause pain sound different when you tired of cryin’…
Mama gone… now the house don’t feel like home,
Every prayer hit the ceiling, then I’m back alone… (alone)
I stare at your pictures while this liquor burn slow,
Tryna heal wounds that the world don’t know…
And my relationship dyin’ right in front of me,
Love turn cold when life steal your peace…
We fight, we break, say things we don’t mean,
Then hold each other while we silently bleed…
I swear I’m exhausted…
Mentally driftin’… emotionally nauseous…
But every time I’m close to fallin’ apart,
I hear God whisper low in the dark…
(talk-box)
“You still breathin’… keep fightin’…”
Pre-Chorus
So I put that pain behind this smile… (behind this smile)
Even though I ain’t been okay in a while…
Tryna hold my head above the waves tonight,
But the storm keep pullin’ me under…
I ask God why my life gotta hurt this way…
Why the real ones always fade away…
But somewhere through these tears and scars,
I still believe You got my heart…
Chorus
And I’m still standing…
Even though this world left my soul damaged… (damaged)
I been battlin’ grief, heartbreak, anxiety…
Still somehow, God keep carryin’ me…
Behind this smile is a man barely holdin’ on,
Nights get dark when the memories strong…
But I refuse to let the pain bury me…
No… I’m still standing…
(layered harmonies)
“Still standing…”
“Still breathing…”
“God got my back…”
“Even when I break…”
Verse 2
Late nights, ceiling fan, conversations with God…
Askin’ Him why every blessing come with scars…
I done lost pieces of myself tryna save everybody else,
Whole time drownin’ inside myself…
And truth is… I’m angry…
Tired of pretending this pressure don’t break me…
Every day I wake up feelin’ incomplete,
Fightin’ demons that don’t ever sleep…
Got trust issues stitched into my bloodstream,
Love feel dangerous after heartbreak and grief…
I let people in, they walk away eventually,
Now abandonment got a permanent grip on me…
But I still get up…
Even with this weight on my chest like a truck…
Even when my faith feel thin as dust,
I still look above and say, “God, I trust…”
(talk-box harmony)
“Don’t leave me now…”
“I’m barely holdin’…”
Bridge
(instrument drops — piano / distant vocal hums)
If You hear me, Lord…
I’m tired…
I’m really tired…
I smile so nobody see the war inside me…
Laugh loud while depression sit beside me…
And I know people see the lights, the songs, the strength…
But they don’t see the nights I almost gave up…
(long vocal run)
“Ohhhhhhhhh… don’t let me faaaallllll…”
‘Cause I been one breath from breakin’…
One phone call from losin’ control…
One bad night from disappearin’ inside myself…
But somehow…
You still keep me standing…
Final Chorus (Key Lift / Explosive Vocals)
And I’m STILL STANDINGGGGG…
Through the tears and the trauma I carry… (carry)
Every scar got a story written on me…
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