So tired of being forced to be perfect
I want to be perfect but I can't be that perfect a person.
Never mind being perfect, I'm already myself
Why are they so selfish?
Is it so difficult for them just to understand?
I've been understanding them all this time but I can't get anything
What do I have to do?
Back down?
Have I given in too often?
Are they that selfish that they don't even let me defend myself?
I'm just a kid who wants to be heard but is it that hard?
When will my time come? I'm tired, too tired to be myself.
Enough of all this falsehood
Sometimes I ask myself why am I doing all this?
But I still don't get an answer
I also can't lie if the person I've been seeing all this time is fake.
But I also don't want to look bad in front of them.
Even now I am complaining but no one cares
And sometimes I think does God love me? But I immediately dismiss that thought
Really, when that thought comes, I feel like I've become the most self-conscious person ever.
But..... Is it wrong to ask for more?
There's only one thing I want
I just want to be understood
But if I ask, I will definitely be an ungrateful person.
I'm scared
I thought being an adult would be that fun.
Turns out I was wrong
God, is it possible for me to go back to the past?
Turns out being an adult isn't that fun
I'm in a dilemma
Do I have to be myself?
Or should I be what they want, a perfect human
When will happiness come to you?
Or am I expecting too much?
But... Hopefully that hope will come true one day
Sorry for complaining God
But there's really nothing I can do but hope in you
Even though I don't know whether it will come true or not
Nobody knows
