Bottle

Never want to see her again but I look for her everywhere I go

Staring down the bottom of a bottle as the liquor fills my soul

I don’t really wanna cry but tonight I might just die if I don’t let go

Now the bottles been replaced with a 12 gauge at my face to blow

Friends keep saying I’ll be fine,

But they don’t hear her in my mind.

Every ghost she left behind

Is crawling back tonight.

(Chorus)

I’ve been trying not to fall apart,

But the cracks keep spreading through my heart.

Thought the whiskey’d drown the pain,

But it only brings her up again.

I’m fighting shadows in my chest,

Can’t breathe with all this weight I’ve kept.

And I swear I’m hanging by a thread—

Just want the storm inside to rest.

(Verse 2)

Tried to leave the past behind me, but it follows everywhere I run,

Every street, every song, every sunrise reminds me I’m undone.

I don’t wanna feel this empty, but the nights keep dragging on and on,

And I’m trying to climb out of the dark where everything went wrong.

(Pre-Chorus)

Everybody says “move on,”

But they don’t know she was my home.

Now I’m pacing nights alone,

Trying not to lose control.

(Chorus)

I’ve been trying not to fall apart,

But the cracks keep spreading through my heart.

Thought the whiskey’d drown the pain,

But it only brings her up again.

I’m fighting shadows in my chest,

Can’t breathe with all this weight I’ve kept.

And I swear I’m hanging by a thread—

Just want the storm inside to rest.

(Bridge)

Maybe someday I’ll feel lighter,

Maybe someday I’ll stop trying to fight her.

But right now I’m lost in the wreckage she made,

Searching for pieces of myself to save.

(Final Chorus)

I’ve been trying not to fall apart,

But the cracks keep spreading through my heart.

Thought the liquor’d drown the pain,

But it only brings her up again.

Still I’m holding on the best I can,

Trying to rise again, to stand.

And even shaking, scared, and stressed—

I swear I’m doing all I can to rest.