Despair

My mind is a feeble wreck, breath reeks of gear and cigarettes.

I rely on any poison, to help me forget, a life summed up with pain and regret.

Laughter is a memory, love is just a lie.

So tired of feeling nothing when i only want to cry.

All my effort is in vain so why the fuck should i try?

So many mixed signals, so just what do you imply?

Pictures of you run through my mind .

Once I stood for something, now looking deep there's nothing I find.

Don't know what I stand for, or what I'm about

Waiting for the spark to flash so i can bask in the fallout.

Depravity, my mentality, consumed by rage and grief, aching for an escape, just a fraction of relief.

I now live my life alone, as in solitude we all leave.

My chest is tight to bursting, i feel like I can't breathe.

My disdain, can't refrain, not asking for reprieve.

I'm callous, I'm a shell, waiting for my trip to hell. arbitrary delusions, and this mire i cannot quell.

Pictures of you run through my mind .

Once I stood for something, now looking deep there's nothing I find.

Don't know what I stand for, or what I'm about

Waiting for the spark to flash so i can bask in the fallout.

Depravity, my mentality, consumed by rage and grief, aching for an escape, just a fraction of relief.

My soul is no longer shining, my heart is closed off to the world.

I can see the past before me, i watch as it's unfurled.

No light in this tunnel, but there is no darkness too. Thanks for all the efforts but I must bid you all adieu.