Breath Without A Body (Eulogy)

(low-tuned guitars fade in, slow feedback swell)

(sub-bass pressure builds under silence)

(distant distorted ambience, like air tearing)

(drums enter half-time, restrained)

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I don’t recognize the face staring back at me

It moves when I move, but it’s not mine

I woke up inside a life already written

Reading lines I never designed

I learned how to smile without meaning

How to nod, how to blend, how to fade

Every choice felt borrowed

Every breath pre-paid

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(guitars begin to swell, tension rising)

I only feel real when it hurts

When the ache cuts through the fog

If the pain ever lets me go

Do I disappear… or rot?

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(full band drops, wide guitars, crushing low end)

(CLEAN)

I’m breathing but I’m not alive

Just shadows keeping time

(SCREAM)

I’M A BODY WITHOUT A SOUL

JUST A PULSE IN THE STATIC NOISE

(CLEAN)

I wear my skin like a compromise

Just trying to survive

(SCREAM)

IF PAIN IS ALL THAT MAKES ME REAL

THEN TAKE IT ALL — I NEED TO FEEL

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(drums push harder, guitars tighter)

(SCREAM)

I live between the mask and the mirror

Stacked lies stitched into my skin

I don’t remember who I was

Just who I’ve been pretending

(CLEAN, haunting harmony)

Pretending… pretending…

(SCREAM)

I’m scared if I stop holding together

I’ll dissolve into air

I’ve been surviving for so long

I forgot how to care

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(music pulls back briefly)

(CLEAN)

Silence keeps asking who I am

(SCREAM)

AND I DON’T HAVE AN ANSWER

(CLEAN)

If I let this version die

(SCREAM)

WHAT’S LEFT AFTER?

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(guitars drop lower, drums hit harder)

(CLEAN)

I’m breathing but I’m not alive

Just existing in disguise

(SCREAM)

SURVIVING ISN’T LIVING

I’M JUST WAITING TO COLLAPSE

(CLEAN)

I fade between the truth and lie

Just to keep my heart in line

(SCREAM)

I FEEL MOST REAL WHEN I’M BREAKING

WHEN THE NUMBNESS DIES

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(tempo slows, chugging guitars, massive low end)

(SCREAM)

I DON’T KNOW WHO I’VE BECOME

I DON’T KNOW IF I EVER DID

I’M TERRIFIED OF FEELING NOTHING

BUT I’M EXHAUSTED FROM THE PAIN I’M IN

(pause — feedback swell)

(SCREAM)

BREATHING

WITHOUT

A BODY

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(everything drops to ambient guitar and distant drums)

(CLEAN, vulnerable)

If I stopped pretending tomorrow

Would anyone notice the change?

Or would I finally feel alive

Without bleeding just to prove my name

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(full instrumentation returns, massive and emotional)

(CLEAN)

I’m breathing but I’m not alive

Still here, but barely inside

(SCREAM)

I SURVIVED EVERY VERSION OF ME

BUT I NEVER LEARNED HOW TO LIVE

(CLEAN)

I don’t want to fade to nothing

I don’t want to wear this lie

(SCREAM)

I JUST WANT TO EXIST

WITHOUT HAVING TO DIE INSIDE

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I’m still here…

I just don’t know who that is…