Drawn - pan

before you knew what you were reaching for

you were already reaching

before the word for beautiful

you were already moved

colors you had no eyes for yet

sounds without a body

feelings rising up through you

like light through water

not yet solid

not yet named

everything was possible

and nothing was contained

you were drawn

before desire had a face

pulled toward form

from some luminous place

you felt everything at once

and it was almost too much

almost too much

to bear

you were fluid at the edges

self without a boundary

love before it had an object

wonder before why

magnetized by something

you couldn’t yet see

becoming the shape

of what you were about to be

not yet solid

not yet named

everything was possible

and nothing was contained

you were drawn

before desire had a face

pulled toward form

from some luminous place

you felt everything at once

and it was almost too much

almost too much

to bear

this is where the wanting started

this is where the cord first hummed

this is where you chose the aching

before you knew what you’d become

you were so alive here

before you were alive

radiant and boundless

learning how to long

drawn

drawn

before the name

before the face

drawn

into the beautiful

density

of here