Life ain’t real

Yeh I’ve been on my own guarded, tryna figure out lifes the hardest, I’ve been to hell and back ever since it started i deal with my own pain and yeah it made me guarded brains feeling retarded the pain and the scars ain’t just physical  there emotional there apart  of me yeah , apart of me yeah 

nothing I do can take the pain away on a rainy day I smile away thinking of the better days but nothing comes To mind when my brain gone and died now I’m replaced with an outer shell of fake emotion there’s no love or potions to save me I’m broken  but I like it now makes me better now cause how can I care when it’s all drowned out an there’s nothing there now

Then they say take another pill to get my brain started I’m lacking it’s heartless they tell me regardless I can tell them a hundred times that none of this is working when somethings on my mind they just write it down like I’m crazy got my body feeling lazy minds racing thoughts pacing l I’m standing here while racing 
   
Cause everything I loved got taken now I’m here wishing can they take the pain away cause the way I feel is broken the meds ain’t working my therapist told me breathe but all I am is breathless all I wanna do is hold it till I’m restless hold my breath til I turn purple the day I have peace is the day I’m dead the only time I’ll feel the fire is only when I’m  burning  say goodbye to my name say goodbye to the pain but don’t thinking I’m looking down on you cause im not there  I’m looking up cause I’m  dancing with the devil now I can rebel now I can shine cause the only things that’s left of me is that little girl of mine She will raise the earth for me she’s the reason I’m still here laughing not cause it’s funny because how could I leave a little girl without a mummy 

Sad rap