Why

Everyone always asks why 
I don’t write happy song that’s because I don’t have happy thoughts my brains the courts my minds the judge my feelings the jury there 12 different sides to me and I all I feel is fury that’s not how it’s meant to be but that’s just me in fact I can’t change it ,it feels strange cause I can’t chase it or rearrange it my brains feeling wasted wish I could persuade it I don’t know how I wish I could just trade it and to stop medicate it 

 but if I could I would I wish I could stand before it I’d kill it I’d dig it a hole and drop in my soul and exchange it I’d get my rage put it in a cage and throw that shit away and pray for a better day i hate being like this 

I hate feeling like this there’s nothing that I would miss can’t change my mental health but if I could just forget it all tomorrow so there be no more sorrow I wish my brain was borrowed I wish I was better now 

 I wouldn’t miss me if I was gone in fact I’d probably sing a happy song fuck the long and fuck this stupid fucking song I could be wrong but I doubt it cause these feelings I have it 


why am I like this I wish I wasn’t like this it’s me and the devil and that’s not who I worship but gods done me dirty done me no favours I wish I had a saviour but my minds full of traitors I blame both my creators feeling like the glaciers cause you can only see the top of it no one looks under it it’s cold in here I could never be frozen with fear and I won’t shed a tear 


I have no sympathy no empathy no trust in me honestly its supposed to be me in here and I hate it here it’s the only thing I know and I’m fucking good at it I’m not proud of it but I’ll live with it 

Rap fast , female voice, deep beat