[Verse 1]
Empty room
Pharmacy light in my head
Tiny white moons in my palm
I just stare instead
You said my name
Pulled me up out of that chair
But every time I close my eyes
I’m right back there
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m scared of the dark in my own chest
I’m scared that I’ll call you and get silence
I’m scared that the past is a loaded gun
Pressed to my temple
Counting
[Chorus]
These drugs don’t work on me
Just make the colors bleed
Nothing fills this hole
Nothing drowns the need
You saved me once
I swear
Dragged me out
Gasping air
Now it’s hard
So hard
Remembering
When you were there
[Verse 2]
Cold tile
Face to the floor again
Shaking hands reach for a ghost
Call your name like a friend
You were the match
In a house soaked through with fear
Now I sift through ashes
Praying
You’re still here
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m scared of the shapes in the mirror
I’m scared of the silence at 3 a.m
I’m scared that I’ll trade my soul for sleep
Then never wake up again
[Chorus]
These drugs don’t work on me
Just make the colors bleed
Nothing fills this hole
Nothing drowns the need
You saved me once
I swear
Dragged me out
Gasping air
Now it’s hard
So hard
Remembering
When you were there
[Bridge]
Every pill
Every promise
Feels like falling through the floor
But your voice in my memory
Keeps me crawling to the door (hey)
If I claw through the black of this night
Will you be on the other side?
Or am I singing to the ceiling
Till the morning kills the sky
[Chorus]
These drugs don’t work on me
Just make the colors bleed
Nothing fills this hole
Nothing drowns the need
You saved me once
I swear
Held my heart
Said “stay right there”
Now it’s hard
So hard
Remembering
But I’m still here
I’m still here