Fading

I’m fading away I’ve been hurt so many damn times that I don’t even know who I am my heart and spirit are broken im stuck in the pit of despair im tired of fighting my way through life im just tired of feeling all this pain that’s trapped inside my self I don’t know how to open up anymore I turn my pain back into my self and it destroys me every time I don’t share my feelings with anyone so that maybe I won’t get hurt again and just maybe I won’t get betrayed again I’ve been hurt so many times I can’t see any light left in me I don’t know if I should let my demons out I just want to curl up in a ball and cry in a dark corner but no tears come out im just fading and I don’t know how to feel anymore I’m just so tired of fighting my demons back im really tired of being hurt no one is here to have my back anymore I’m stuck behind my walls in my head and my heart has gone black I don’t feel anything anymore I want to care again but I don’t know how to release all my chains that hold me down in the end all my emotions and everything that I am is just fading away yeah I’m just fading away and I don’t know who I am anymore I’m just stuck in the darkness and im slowly drowning in all of my emotions I just don’t know who I am anymore all I know is that I’m slowly fading with in the darkness