[Verse 1]
Jaw clenched
Eyes wide
Say you’re fine
But your hands lie
Every word
Feels sour
Still I’m staring
Like it’s flowered
I wanna gag
I wanna cheer
You’re so close
And nowhere near
[Chorus]
I’m between grit and shock
Can’t spit it out, can’t talk
Every breath tastes wrong, tastes sweet
I’m nailed in place on this crosswalk
I’m between grit and shock
Pulled by the push and the drop
Hate what I crave, crave what I hate
I can’t decide, can’t stop
[Verse 2]
Nervous laugh
Crooked grin (yeah)
You’re a car crash
With perfume on your skin
I should bail
Should turn away
But the burn in my chest
Wants to stay
I flinch, I lean in
Both at once
You’re a dare
And a disgust
[Chorus]
I’m between grit and shock
Can’t spit it out, can’t talk
Every breath tastes wrong, tastes sweet
I’m nailed in place on this crosswalk
I’m between grit and shock
Pulled by the push and the drop
Hate what I crave, crave what I hate
I can’t decide, can’t stop
[Bridge]
[Beat drops, everything lurches into half-time]
One foot in the fire
One foot in the flood
I choke on your sugar
Then I’m coughing up mud
You’re a curse in a ribbon
A bruise in a kiss
I’m disgusted I want you
I’m amazed that I’m this (messed up)
[Final Chorus]
I’m between grit and shock
Can’t spit it out, can’t talk
Every breath tastes wrong, tastes sweet
I’m nailed in place on this crosswalk
I’m between grit and shock
Pulled by the push and the drop
Hate what I crave, crave what I hate
I can’t decide, can’t stop
Yeah, I’m between grit and shock
(Yeah) between grit and shock
Stuck in the thrill and the rot
And I still can’t cut you off