Feelings inside

I’m fed up, yeah, I’m tired of the pain

Smile on my face but I’m dying inside my brain

Wanna tell the world everything that I hate

But I stay quiet ‘cause I know they won’t relate

They’ll use me up, yeah, laugh in my face

Say they hear me, then they leave me in the rain

So I lock my feelings deep where they stay

I don’t say a word, nah, I don’t say a thing

I got thoughts in my head I don’t speak out loud

‘Cause every time I did, they just laughed in the crowd

Said “you good, bro?” but they never stick around

Only hear me when I’m up, never when I’m down

I been carrying this weight on my own two feet

Heart full of scars, but I still look clean

Everybody want love, but it cost too much

So I numb myself out, I don’t feel that touch

I don’t trust nobody, not even friends

Every time I open up, it just ends

So I pour my pain in these melodies

Hoping one day someone really hears me

I’m fed up, yeah, I’m tired of the pain

Smile on my face but I’m dying inside my brain

Wanna tell the world everything that I hate

But I stay quiet ‘cause I know they won’t relate

They’ll use me up, yeah, laugh in my face

Say they hear me, then they leave me in the rain

So I lock my feelings deep where they stay

I don’t say a word, nah, I don’t say a thing

I been screaming in silence, nobody knows

All these fake-ass smiles, all these fake-ass bros

They say “be yourself,” but judge you quick

Soon as you show pain, they dip real quick

I don’t wanna be a joke, don’t wanna be weak

So I bleed in the booth, let the mic hear me

I’m fed up with pretending I’m okay

I just learned how to hide it real well these days

If I told you the truth, would you still stay?

Or would you turn it into something to say?

That’s why I keep my heart in a cage

Locked up tight, far away

I’m fed up, but I don’t let it show

Too scared they’ll break me if they really know

So I wear my pain like designer clothes

Look good outside, but I’m dead at home

If you hear this song, just know it’s real

I don’t talk much, but this how I feel