Nothing In the Silence

I left the light on like it might bring me back

But the room's just cold and the walls still crack

Every word I said still hangs like smoke

And I breathe it in until I choke

My hands shake when I sit too still

Like there's something buried I forgot to feel

I keep pretending that I’ve moved on

But I flinch at every quiet song

There's nothing in the silence

But I keep listening anyway

I scream inside with violence

And no one hears a thing I say

They call it healing, I call it hiding

If I’m surviving, why’s it feel like dying?

There’s nothing in the silence

But I stay

You wouldn’t know it just by looking

But I’m stitched with broken things

I laugh too loud to drown the static

And I bite down hard when I start to sink

I’ve burned through every friend I trusted

Told myself it’s self-defense

But now the mirror won’t look back

And I don’t know what that reflects

There's nothing in the silence

But I keep listening anyway

I scream inside with violence

And no one hears a thing I say

They call it healing, I call it hiding

If I’m surviving, why’s it feel like dying?

There’s nothing in the silence

But I stay

I’m not waiting for a light to save me

I’ve stopped believing I’m worth the cost

But if you ever feel this empty

At least you’ll know you’re not lost

There’s nothing in the silence

But maybe that’s where I belong

If I can’t fix what’s broken

Then maybe silence can be strong

They call it healing, I call it fighting

If I’m alive, why’s it still so frightening?

There’s nothing in the silence

But I…

I stay