Skin of Ash (Still Feels Warm)

I threw out the shirt you left on my floor

Wasn’t much, but it felt like war

Some things stick no matter how deep

You bury them under days without sleep

Tried cutting my hair just to feel control

Didn’t work, but it gave me a goal

Stared in the mirror for half the night

Still didn’t like what I saw in the light

And I keep saying I’m okay

Like the words might make it true someday

But it’s hard to feel real at all

When no one notices if you fall

Skin of ash, still feels warm

I’ve been walking through the storm

Told myself I’m moving on

But I’m stuck replaying what went wrong

I laugh just to fill the space

Lie to strangers just in case

They ask too much, and I fall apart

Right back to where I always start

I text back when I don’t want to talk

Play the part like it’s all just a walk

But I’m dragging weight I never chose

Carrying pain that nobody knows

I drive past places we used to go

Pretend it doesn’t hurt, but I know

The past isn’t gone — it just hides

In songs I skip and quiet nights

I don’t need to be saved

Just someone who stays when I cave

But people leave when you get too deep

So I’ve learned to drown where no one can see

Skin of ash, still feels warm

Fighting fires I never warned

You can’t rebuild when you’re still burnt

Can’t forget what you never learned

I laugh just to kill the noise

Smile like I have a choice

But under it all, I’m still the same

Still chasing peace I never claimed

I don’t want a fix, just space

To feel the weight without the shame

You don’t have to understand

Just let me breathe, don’t grab my hand

Skin of ash, still feels warm

I’m not broken, just worn

I don’t need to rise or shine

Just need a day where I feel fine

No speeches, no advice

Just quiet, honest eyes

That see the mess and still stay close

That’s the kind of love I miss the most

I’m still here, even if I fade

Still trying to mean the words I say