Today I wake I felt like absolutely nothing.
It’s another shit day gotta take my suboxone.
Trying to undo my path like it’s an option.
So it’s like…
You saw me falling all the way to rock bottom.
Fighting my demons, but I couldn’t fight all of them.
The temperature rises, during the summer I have problems.
My depression skyrockets and it’s not the heat exhaustion.
In my head I have feelings that completely resurfaced.
My struggles overwhelm me, I’m being held hostage by my emotions that overcame me, but I’ll fight through it.
Emotional scarring, in my brain there’s damage.
Irrational thinking, it’s been hard to manage.
Unforgettable drinking, the times that I was selfish.
Unmanageable drugging, substance held me captive.
I feel completely empty and unlovable.
No one will ever love me if I act like I’m invincible.
Deep inside I have a voice that cry’s, soon I’ll parish, I can’t say I’m afraid to die.
You saw me falling all the way to rock bottom.
Fighting my demons, but I couldn’t fight all of them.
The temperature rises, during the summer I have problems.
My depression skyrockets and it’s not the heat exhaustion.
Running out of oxygen, suddenly I can’t breathe.
Running out of options, time is consuming me.
So many prescriptions, changing them frequently.
As much as I want to give up, I have to many that believe in me.
From dusk until dawn, I think about all of my wrongs.
The trusts that’s gone makes it hard to move along.
I must be strong to keep going and live on.
Enough sad songs, hopefully I touched your heart with this one.
I was stuck thinking about you, was back on the drugs again.
I saw all the scars left on you, I hope one day that’ll end.
Good vibes that were in the room, maybe they’ll be my only friend.
The smell of her perfume was too much for my feelings.
You saw me falling all the way to rock bottom.
Fighting my demons, but I couldn’t fight all of them.
The temperature rises, during the summer I have problems.
My depression skyrockets and it’s not the heat exhaustion.
Don’t mix the drugs with women, it’s a hypnotizing paradise.
Suffocating to death, pain in my chest, dying twice.
Falling straight into the abyss, getting high when I’m upset.
I see the devil in my window, I’m terrified of going to bed.
DieSad
