I'm sorry

Hey! Guess what? What? I just want you to know that I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you I'm sorry for putting you in the past I know you won't forgive for that I'm sorry for being here I know that I'm annoying I wanna change who I am cuz I'm still the same and please lord let me change for the people who hate me and for the people who don't care bout me I lost a lot of people for being a dumbass all my life I know that won't change for me I just need someone to help me I want help for a change if nobody can't help me change oh lord your the only one that can help me change cuz people are too careless to help I just want a normal life for lord sake.. so when will I ever be good enough for the world to change for me and why is it me always me that's hurting the world for every reason. Everything repeats in my head it repeats so damn crazy that is messing me up so bad I just wanna die I don't wanna be alive I don't wanna be alive so lord help me right now before I get lost in the dark side I just need your light to save me before I'm gone. I've been called worthless, bumbass, dumb bitch, asshole, fuck face, whore, mental girl and all that shit! So when will be my time to fucken shine I'm getting worse as I get older. I hold my pain everyday every second and all those years are wasted on all the shit I've been through. So lord let the bright light shine through me before i drowned into the darkness.