Gambling Addiction

I swear I said

That I’d never feel it again 
I’d never trust or believe it again 
But now here I am jumping right back in 
Sold my behind just to buy some peace of mind

I seem to find all the liars 
The type to only ignite the fires 
The type to say they’ll never go away 
But I can’t seem to find anyone that stays 

I find myself asking is it worth it 
Hurting myself living through bullshit 
I need the fix so I took the loan 
I just never want to feel alone 

All my life it feels like anyone I could count on 
Just left and let me down 
Been delt such a shitty hand I’ve done everything I can 
It was all for nothing 
So can I really trust a bond when the glue is gone? 
I really don’t think so 

Oh why did I? 

Step through those doors
If my heart was bleeding 
Oh why did I
Really think I need it?

The room is getting crowded
I bought what they touted 
I’m drugged then doubted 
There ain’t two way about it

I find myself asking is it worth it 
Hurting myself living through bullshit 
I need the fix so I took the loan 
I just never want to feel alone 

All my life it feels like anyone I could count on 
Just left and let me down 
Been delt such a shitty hand I’ve done everything I can 
It was all for nothing 
So can I really trust a bond when the glue is gone? 
I really don’t think so 

I swear I said

That I’d never feel it again 
I’d never trust or believe it again 
But now here I am jumping right back in 
Sold my behind just to buy some peace of mind

All my life it feels like anyone I could count on 
Just left and let me down

All my life it feels like anyone I could count on 
Just left and let me down

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