Not for long

Oooh

oooh

I pray

(prayed to shadows)

Just another thing I fake

Been smiling like I’m healed

Still sleeping with the lights on

Tryna drown what I still feel

Built a house out of my doubt

And called it a home

I walk through rooms that don’t exist

Of a life I missed alone

I’ve been holding my breath

And I forgot how it feels

To let the truth be so wrong

And just let it all heal

( let it all heal)

I don’t think I’ll survive the sound

When the silence gets too loud

(Too loud)

I say I’m stronger than I look

But I learned to shut my mouth

( shut my mouth)

All these secrets in my chest

Tryna claw their way out

( way out)

Every breath’s a scream I hide

And every heartbeat is a lie

(Its Just a lie)

Just a lie

Its just a lie

Been chasing who I was

Before I disappeared

Buried things I couldn’t fix

called it strength all these years

I trace the scars I never earned

Feel the fire that never burned

Hear the world in slow decay

But I’m still standing here today

( still standing here today)

Maybe breaking is the way

I finally feel alive ( feel alive)

I don’t think I’ll survive the sound

But I’m standing here right now

( right now)

I’m still stronger than I look

Even when I break it down

(Break it down)

All these secrets in my chest

I don’t have to drown them out

( drown the out)

Every breath still hurts to take

But I’m learning how to stay

(To stay)

I’ve prayed to shadows, begged the night

To hold me tight or let me die

Let the silence swallow me whole

Let the darkness carve my soul

No savior comes, no hand to hold

Just cold reality, bitter and old

( cold bitter and old)

But maybe fire leaves a spark

Even in the coldest dark

I’ll lift my hands, I’ll try to see

A little light inside of me

If you reach for me, I’ll hold on

Too far gone?

Not for long

(Not for long)

Not for long