Hot Mess

[Verse 1]
Mascara on my wrist like war paint
Lipgloss stain on my own mistake
Laugh till it cracks then I bite my tongue
Who am I tryna impress
When my head’s undone
[Pre-Chorus]
I say I’m fine
I say I’m fine (I’m lying)
Turn my pride to a car crash siren
Every word I didn’t send
Plays back
Plays back in my head
[Chorus]
I’m a hot mess
Burning in your rearview
Pretty little meltdown
Screaming that I “don’t need you”
But I chase every echo of the things we never said
Heart like a room on fire
Still saving you a bed
Hot mess
Dripping in the perfume
Of every single promise that exploded in this room
If I’m so over it
Why do I confess?
Guess I only feel alive as your hot
Hot mess
[Verse 2]
I wear my jealousy like cheap silk
Tear it at the seams just to feel guilt
Scroll through pictures till my thumbs go numb
Why can’t I let it die
Let it come undone
[Pre-Chorus]
I say I’m fine
I say I’m fine (I’m lying)
Tongue sweet-poisoned
Heart defiant
All the ways I play pretend
Loop back
Loop back in my head
[Chorus]
I’m a hot mess
Burning in your rearview
Pretty little meltdown
Screaming that I “don’t need you”
But I chase every echo of the things we never said
Heart like a room on fire
Still saving you a bed
Hot mess
Dripping in the perfume
Of every single promise that exploded in this room
If I’m so over it
Why do I confess?
Guess I only feel alive as your hot
Hot mess
[Bridge]
Tell me
Do you miss it when I self-destruct? (oh)
Do you replay every night we almost fell in love?
If I slam the door
Will you pull me back?
Or watch me fall through every fragile crack
[Chorus]
I’m a hot mess
Burning in your rearview
Pretty little meltdown
Screaming that I “don’t need you”
But I chase every echo of the things we never said
Heart like a room on fire
Still saving you a bed
Hot mess
Dripping in the perfume
Of every single promise that exploded in this room
If I’m so over it
Why do I confess?
Guess I only feel alive as your hot
Hot mess

pop, Alt R&B / alt pop with female vocals; hyper-saturated sub bass and sharp, fast drum programming under a hazy, reverb-drenched synth bed. Verses almost whispered right in the ear, close-mic and intimate, with pitchy background doubles. Chorus explodes brighter and wider with stacked harmonies and a distorted bass swell. Occasional stuttered vocal chops and filtered drops to heighten the “mad but longing” tension, finishing on a stripped, ethereal outro hook., r&b