[Verse 1]
Every name in my phone feels hollow
Typed "you up?" then I never hit send
Got a playlist of half-done almosts
And a heart that keeps betting again
Left my toothbrush at someone's apartment
Just to see if they'd ask me to stay
But their eyes always look past tomorrow
Like I'm meant to be gone anyway
[Chorus]
I am so tired of paper walls
One touch and it all just falls
I keep building a home in a hallway
Begging a stranger to call it always
Tell me you mean it
Then mean it again
Hold me like more than a moment can
I am so tired of paper walls
[Verse 2]
Told my friends that I'm fine
I'm busy
But the truth is I'm scared of the dark
So I sleep with the screen still glowing
So it feels like I'm not torn apart
Why's it easy to say "forever"
When forever runs out in a week?
I'm a fortress with hidden fractures
I am strong
I am still so weak
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Do you see past my practiced laughter?
Past the shimmer and careful pose?
If I hand you the trembling pieces
Will you stay when the curtain closes? [low vocal register]
I don't want perfect
I want steady
Not a promise
But showing up ready
[Chorus]