Wish

She’s by my side, always so good

The kind of love I never understood

She holds me down, she keeps me sane

But your name still messes with my brain

You laugh like trouble, walk like sin

I know where you start, I know where it ends

You play with hearts like it’s just a game

And I still flinch when she says your name

I love her, I really do

But I’m crushin’ on the thought of you

And I know, deep in my chest

You were never mine, just a beautiful mess

So I second-guess, try to fake the light

Lie to myself that it’s all alright

It’s a war I fight inside my head

Loving her, wishing you were mine instead

You run through my world like a quiet storm

And I hate that I still want more

She’s steady hands and soft goodnights

You’re chaos dressed in flashing lights

I see you laughing across the room

And I feel like I’m cheating, just watching you

You spin through her life like a reckless flame

And I’m trying not to feel ashamed

I love her, I really do

But I’m crushin’ on the thought of you

And I know, it’s wrong to dream

Of someone who ain’t what they seem

So I second-guess, try to fake the light

Lie to myself that it’s all alright

It’s a war I fight inside my head

Loving her, wishing you were mine instead

You’re untouchable, and that’s the truth

But still I fall when I think of you

You’ll never be the one I hold

But damn, your memory’s ice and gold

I love her, I swear I do

But some nights I still think of you

And I know you’ll never stay

Just a dream that won’t go away

So I second-guess, live in between

The man I am, and what I mean

I hold her close, try to feel alright

While I battle this ghost of you every night