She’s by my side, always so good
The kind of love I never understood
She holds me down, she keeps me sane
But your name still messes with my brain
You laugh like trouble, walk like sin
I know where you start, I know where it ends
You play with hearts like it’s just a game
And I still flinch when she says your name
I love her, I really do
But I’m crushin’ on the thought of you
And I know, deep in my chest
You were never mine, just a beautiful mess
So I second-guess, try to fake the light
Lie to myself that it’s all alright
It’s a war I fight inside my head
Loving her, wishing you were mine instead
You run through my world like a quiet storm
And I hate that I still want more
She’s steady hands and soft goodnights
You’re chaos dressed in flashing lights
I see you laughing across the room
And I feel like I’m cheating, just watching you
You spin through her life like a reckless flame
And I’m trying not to feel ashamed
I love her, I really do
But I’m crushin’ on the thought of you
And I know, it’s wrong to dream
Of someone who ain’t what they seem
So I second-guess, try to fake the light
Lie to myself that it’s all alright
It’s a war I fight inside my head
Loving her, wishing you were mine instead
You’re untouchable, and that’s the truth
But still I fall when I think of you
You’ll never be the one I hold
But damn, your memory’s ice and gold
I love her, I swear I do
But some nights I still think of you
And I know you’ll never stay
Just a dream that won’t go away
So I second-guess, live in between
The man I am, and what I mean
I hold her close, try to feel alright
While I battle this ghost of you every night