Not my Fault

Title: “Not My Fault”

They said I was too pretty to be broken

Too holy to be hurting

But behind the worship, I was drowning

And nobody saw it coming

I was loyal, I was true

Gave my heart, gave it all to you

You were trusted, you were praised

But you played me in twisted ways

Set me up, tore me down

Drugged my mind, spun me around

Tried to test if I’d still choose you

Even when I had no clue

You made me doubt my worth

Like I was cursed from birth

Told me I’d never win

Made me wear your sin

But it’s not my fault — I was love, not weak

I was light, not naive

You broke me, but I still believed

Now I’m healing, still I grieve

It’s not my fault — I was pure, not blind

I was kind, not behind

You twisted truth, but I survived

I’m still here, still alive

I smiled in church, I played the part

But depression had my heart

I laughed with friends, I wore the mask

But inside, I couldn’t ask

Every man that came my way

I’d test them like you did me

Scared to trust, scared to stay

Scared love would never be free

I blamed myself for all the pain

Thought I should’ve walked away

But victims don’t always see the signs

Till they’re lost in someone else’s lies

It’s not my fault — I was love, not weak

I was light, not naive

You broke me, but I still believed

Now I’m healing, still I grieve

It’s not my fault — I was pure, not blind

I was kind, not behind

You twisted truth, but I survived

I’m still here, still alive

I’m learning to trust again

To breathe again

To love without fear

And this time…

I choose me