why do i

Verse 1

Sometimes I think about the memories 
The way you said you’d never leave 
Now it’s quiet where you used to be 
And I don’t know what that means 

You used to fill the empty space 
Now it just echoes when I speak 
I hear your voice in everything 
But you’re not really here with me 

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So why do I question when you say you love me? 
Like it could still mean something 
When I already know 

Why do I question when you walk away? 
Like you’re gonna stay 
When I already know

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Chorus

Why do I question you? 
I already know the truth
You don’t stay, you don’t choose 
You just say what you do 

Why do I hold on still 
To something I can’t feel? 
I knew it from the start 
Just didn’t wanna be real 

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Verse 2

I won’t say I don’t miss you 
That would be a lie I tell myself 
You said things you didn’t mean 
Then left them on the shelf 

I replay every little word 
Like it’s gonna change somehow 
But every version ends the same
You’re just not around 

So why do I question every little silence? 
Try to sit in the quiet 
Like it won’t get loud 
And why do I wait for you to come back 
When I know, deep down 
You’re not coming now 

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Chorus ( open steady firm detached aching clear soft) 

Why do I question you? 
I already know the truth 
You don’t stay, you don’t choose 
You just say what you do 

Why do I hold on still 
To something I can’t feel? 
I knew it from the start 
Just didn’t wanna be real 

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Verse 3 : (reflective tired realizing hurt calm sad truth steady) 

I got used to the distance 
The way you’d drift, then reappear 
Just enough to keep me close 
But never really here 

I made space for your absence 
Like it was part of loving you 
Now I’m learning how to sit 
With what you put me through 

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Bridge : (quiet build up to healed, honest) 

I don’t have questions now 
Just answers I avoid 
You were never really mine 
Just something I enjoyed 

And it hurts a little less 
Every time I say it out loud 
You were never gonna stay 
I just didn’t know how 

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Break

I think I knew… 
I just didn’t want to…

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Final Chorus (ending, healed) 

Why did I question you? 
I already knew the truth 
You don’t stay, you don’t choose 
I just wanted you to 

Why did I hold on still 
To something I can’t feel? 
I knew it from the start 
just didn’t wanna be real 

female, indie alternative heartbreak pop