why do i

Verse 1

Sometimes I think about the memories

The way you said you’d never leave

Now it’s quiet where you used to be

And I don’t know what that means

You used to fill the empty space

Now it just echoes when I speak

I hear your voice in everything

But you’re not really here with me

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So why do I question when you say you love me?

Like it could still mean something

When I already know

Why do I question when you walk away?

Like you’re gonna stay

When I already know

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Chorus

Why do I question you?

I already know the truth

You don’t stay, you don’t choose

You just say what you do

Why do I hold on still

To something I can’t feel?

I knew it from the start

Just didn’t wanna be real

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Verse 2

I won’t say I don’t miss you

That would be a lie I tell myself

You said things you didn’t mean

Then left them on the shelf

I replay every little word

Like it’s gonna change somehow

But every version ends the same

You’re just not around

So why do I question every little silence?

Try to sit in the quiet

Like it won’t get loud

And why do I wait for you to come back

When I know, deep down

You’re not coming now

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Chorus ( open steady firm detached aching clear soft)

Why do I question you?

I already know the truth

You don’t stay, you don’t choose

You just say what you do

Why do I hold on still

To something I can’t feel?

I knew it from the start

Just didn’t wanna be real

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Verse 3 : (reflective tired realizing hurt calm sad truth steady)

I got used to the distance

The way you’d drift, then reappear

Just enough to keep me close

But never really here

I made space for your absence

Like it was part of loving you

Now I’m learning how to sit

With what you put me through

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Bridge : (quiet build up to healed, honest)

I don’t have questions now

Just answers I avoid

You were never really mine

Just something I enjoyed

And it hurts a little less

Every time I say it out loud

You were never gonna stay

I just didn’t know how

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Break

I think I knew…

I just didn’t want to…

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Final Chorus (ending, healed)

Why did I question you?

I already knew the truth

You don’t stay, you don’t choose

I just wanted you to

Why did I hold on still

To something I can’t feel?

I knew it from the start

just didn’t wanna be real