Positiv Masquarade

You can't see the pain in me

That I'm drowning in my own dark sea

You can't see my inner fights

And my long nights

You see the big show I play

But actually it's just a nother dark day

I pretend that I feel fine

But that isn't a feeling of mine

The positive masquarade I show

It's not that what I feel below

Wearing the masquarade of happiness

But filled underneath with emptiness

The sadness I washed away

With smile of a wonderful day

Showing me in a good mood

But caught in a inner bad neighbourhood

I learned to hide

The chaos inside

I learned to shine bright

But in me there is only a dull light

The positive masquarade I show

It's not that what I feel below

Wearing the masquarade of happiness

But filled underneath with emptiness

No one sees how I fall apart

You only see how I beginn an new start

No one sees me break

That my dark thoughts keep me awake

And no one sees the loneliness

And the weight of hoplesness

You only see me working like a machine

It's like an daily automatic routine

The positive masquarade I show

It's not that what I feel below

Wearing the masquarade of happiness

But filled underneath with emptiness

But for you I fake that all away

For you all, I show the bright way

For you I pretend, that I found a safe place

But I'm hanging around in an empty space

I won't isolate myself for you

I show you, that happiness can be true

I won't show you my affliction

I'll show you a positiv opinion

There is no more positive masquarade I can show

It's darkness I feel below

Wearing the masquarade of emptiness

But try to fill it with happiness