Code Red: Self-Distruction

Doctor,

Doctor?

Yes?

We've got a code red

What?

We've got a new code red

What happend? Where am I?

Is this heaven? Did I die?

Or did I fail again? Do I still live?

Fuck, I'm still alive! Hope you all can forgive

Death, am I not worthy?

I just want to get your mercy

Please end this nightmare

My life a dark glare

My daily life a daily pills theatre

They should make my life sweeter

But my heart still crying

When will I be dying

Doctor,

Doctor?

Yes

The code red is a patient with self-destruction

Vitals are critical, but still function

The code red, is it him again

Yes

There's a voice I hear, distant, yet clear

Don't fear, please don't disappear

Don't believe the vision you see

Don't listen to the deaths plea

I answer, can't you damn see

I had enough of me

I called hope more then once

But it answered with ignorance

Fear is awaking

My body is shaking

looking around

My good old room in the psychiatry I found

The psychiatrist was the voice I heard

I'd rather hear a chirping bird

Nothing that I can do against it

Just lying here like a piece of shit

There's a voice I hear, distant, yet clear

You don't have to fear

You're in your room again

Healing you can regain

I answer, can't you damn see

I had enough of me

I called hope more then once

But it answered with ignorance

This stay is hopefully the last call for hope

My dark memories I can't cope

When can I escape this hell

Or can I break this cursed spell

Around me everything dark and cold

Was that it? Was that my story told?

The beeping machine a deadly symphony

Death? Hope you're not a mimicry

Doctor,

Doctor?

Yes

The code red was reanimated

Life is back in him

Good, he'll not die today

There's a voice I hear, distant, yet clear

You're back here

We've an eye on you

Also this darkness you get through

I answer, can't you damn see

I had enough of me

I called hope more then once

But it answered with ignorance

Why was I reanimated?

What happend?

If I would die

Would someone cry?

This pills make me don't want to say goodbye