Faithful ever after

God-are you listening to me?

I got questions…they said you got the answers….

Tell me bout my end?

Will I die in the hood? Or Will I die from cancer?

[dial tone]………

See-that’s what I thought…

I open up for guidance and I get is a drought

I thought you said i’d rise? But yet it’s seeming like I’ll fall….

Should I stand tall?-(damn…)….Or should I lose it all?

See this process is depressing……..

I’m not getting better, I been feeling like I’m destined….

To be the one who carries on this message..

Forget it…..

I know there is no purpose for me to second guess it,

I just hope it all shows, the moment where it means the most,

Don’t know if I’ll be still around-or damned to be a ghost-

Dear father-won’t you talk with me?

When it’s my time-would you walk with me?

Yeah…

You know I’m trying-but it’s hard you see?

I pushed em off-but these demons won’t stay off of me….

And if I cry-the reaper stalking me

I don’t why, but in my eyes…….

You posed to be my shining light but seem to be disguised….

I don’t know whether I’m loved-or I’m despised……

Look-

I don’t go to church-but you said faith don’t need no temple,

Cuz nowadays you’re followers seem paranoid and criminal,

Not tryna be subliminal but don’t know if gets to you?

Knowing that it’s hell down here….

Said heavens up above but I see gates down here..

We made from love, so why is there so much hate down there?

They testing fate down here….

There ain’t no capes down…

Hell-there ain’t no faith down here-!

I’m tryna stay afloat but it seems water ain’t holy,

They tell me how to act and when I don’t they patrol me,

I thought you was my leader?

Or maybe not-apocalypse, let’s watch as they repeat it,

I thought bout keeping silent-but with you this ain’t no secret,

You know what I’ve done,

You know where I’ve gone,

You know how i feel about it,

But don’t give no response……

Dear father-won’t you talk with me?

When it’s my time-would you walk with me?

Yeah…

You know I’m trying-but it’s hard you see?

I pushed em off-but these demons won’t stay off of me….

And if I cry-the reaper stalking me

I don’t why, but in my eyes…….

You posed to be my shining light but seem to be disguised….

I don’t know whether I’m loved-or I’m despised……