Letters to forever

How do you explain your not fine

Sitting alone everyday and every night

Looking up to the sky with tears in your eyes

Crying and begging God to end this pain right

Gave life all I had to give in an instant

All it seemed was desperation and it's best

Willing to throw away and sacrifice everything

But yet I feel empty like I wanna scream

One day I'm fine next day I'm gone

A split seconde decision I wish I could take back

Reached out for help but no one listened

Now they wish they would of helped

Ate one bullet and now it's done

A regrettable decision with a gun

Hotline wasn't real so I could see

That this world wasn't really meant for me

Since the birth of my first I wished for a better life

Working tirelessly scraping to barely get by

Fast forward 8 years later he's got a little brother

Both of them are doing amazing thanks to their father.

Working endlessly to better myself

The situation we were in I got us out

Sacrificed and sold every item I own

Just to provide a stable life and a safe home

One day I'm fine next day I'm gone

A split seconde decision I wish I could take back

Reached out for help but no one listened

Now they wish they would of helped

Ate one bullet and now it's done

A regrettable decision with a gun

Hotline wasn't real so I could see

That this world wasn't really meant for me