[Verse 1]
I grew up in a house full of empty rooms
Voices faded, no one to turn to
No “we”, no us, just me alone
Learning how to stand on my own
No holidays, no memories made
Just passing days that slowly fade
Everyone living their separate lives
While I was just trying to survive
[Pre-Chorus]
Then everything broke when they walked away
And I felt myself start to change
[Chorus]
So if I seem cold, like I don’t care
It’s just the armor that I wear
I’ve been hurt more than I can say
So I push the world away
If I seem lost or hard to reach
There’s a side of me you don’t see
I’m not heartless, I just learned to be
The way I am to protect me
[Verse 2]
Old friends turned and left me behind
Pointing fingers, drawing lines
Blamed for things I didn’t do
Still I carried all that through
Every scar just built these walls
Every silence, every fall
Taught my heart to shut things out
That’s what this pain’s about
[Pre-Chorus]
Life kept hitting, I couldn’t break
So I became what I had to make
[Chorus]
So if I seem cold, like I don’t care
It’s just the armor that I wear
I’ve been hurt more than I can say
So I push the world away
If I seem lost or hard to reach
There’s a side of me you don’t see
I’m not heartless, I just learned to be
The way I am to protect me
[Bridge]
But I swear there’s more beneath this skin
A war outside, a fight within
I never learned how love should feel
So I don’t know what’s even real
But if you stay, if you don’t run
You might see who I’ve become
Not just the walls, not just the pain
But someone trying to change
[Final Chorus]
So if I seem cold, I hope you see
It’s not who I want to be
It’s just the past still holding on
Even when I’m trying to move on
If you can look beyond my scars
Maybe you’ll see my heart
I’m not heartless, I just had to be
The way I am… to protect me
Frederick Koen
