Eternal

I just wish you didnt have to leave me

Now im seeking for a map to guide me through this state of grieving 

Ironically now we’re both internally bleeding

My guts ruptured, punctured and leaking

I Regurgitate with every word that i hurl im seething 

The hole in your colon now opened in my heart

I was hoping itd be closed but the distance between this stitches is too far apart

Now i sit anxious, impatient and complacent, pacing in the same space, contemplating 

How im gonna face it, the hero of my day is no longer here to save it

As i stay awake at night aching

For another conversation

I was fully reliant on your guidance now i lie in a sty of silence

I wish there was a perfect word to define it 

But id be lying if i said i was survivin

I hoping every word i whispered in those final moments were heard

And each letter added another feather for your wings so you could surge

To the heavenly world above

And you ascended to a sense of effervescence like a dove

Your soul was composed of a symphony that the angels sang with love

Its like they had an epiphany and they molded you in the epitome of 

An inspiration

I guess you were just too close to god so you needed to reach your destination

Sooner than we could understand

I could feel a bolt of lightning jolt when i held your hand

I won't just think of the hospital room

Nauseous as the doctor said they were out of options for your 

Abdominal wounds

I'll think of the positive things 

And the lessons you taught me 

I'll list a few of em right now promptly 

if you're gonna say youll do something you better mean it 

Don't let somebody tell you different if you truly believe it 

If you stand for nothing you fall for anything 

And don't get overly emotional over the petty things 

Im so honored to have learnt from the best

And I guess the rest of my life is the test

So this is for you, your soul carries on

Never gone

Forever eternalized in this song