Eternal

I just wish you didnt have to leave me
Now im seeking for a map to guide me through this state of grieving 
Ironically now we’re both internally bleeding
My guts ruptured, punctured and leaking
I Regurgitate with every word that i hurl im seething 
The hole in your colon now opened in my heart
I was hoping itd be closed but the distance between this stitches is too far apart
Now i sit anxious, impatient and complacent, pacing in the same space, contemplating 
How im gonna face it, the hero of my day is no longer here to save it
As i stay awake at night aching
For another conversation
I was fully reliant on your guidance now i lie in a sty of silence
I wish there was a perfect word to define it 
But id be lying if i said i was survivin
I hoping every word i whispered in those final moments were heard
And each letter added another feather for your wings so you could surge
To the heavenly world above
And you ascended to a sense of effervescence like a dove
Your soul was composed of a symphony that the angels sang with love
Its like they had an epiphany and they molded you in the epitome of 
An inspiration
I guess you were just too close to god so you needed to reach your destination
Sooner than we could understand
I could feel a bolt of lightning jolt when i held your hand
I won't just think of the hospital room
Nauseous as the doctor said they were out of options for your 
Abdominal wounds
I'll think of the positive things 
And the lessons you taught me 
I'll list a few of em right now promptly 
 if you're gonna say youll do something you better mean it 
Don't let somebody tell you different if you truly believe it 
If you stand for nothing you fall for anything 
And don't get overly emotional over the petty things 
Im so honored to have learnt from the best 
And I guess the rest of my life is the test 
So this is for you, your soul carries on
Never gone 
Forever eternalized in this song 

Inspired by movin on by missouri 
Emotional rock song about grief but sang with a gruff passion and emotion
Nickelback