Just thought you should know

You took my trust, you took my childhood at such a young age. I knew there was no happy ever after for me. I always asked why me, knowing I wasn’t the only one didn’t help. Still dosnt 
Someday I will scream your name 
Someday they will all know 
Someday the real you will show 

I want to scream but will it help I live in a prison within myself . I drive by a field and want to run thru it just to feel an ounce of freedom. The ocean feels amazing the sound of the waves takes it away even just for a moment. 

Someday I will scream your name 
Someday they will all know 
Someday the real you will show 

I thought about killing myself/I thought about killing you. Would it help ? No, the damage has already been done.i can’t sleep in a room with no windows. It’s worse than being trapped in my own mind, no outlet to the outside world. Know one gets it, they say once you are assaulted or raped it happens multiple times they are right you were just the first.

Someday I will scream your name 
Someday they will all know 
Someday the real you will show 

Sometimes I’m”fine” sometimes I really am
Most of the time I’m not I just try to hide it or just deal.  Somedays I wake up and just wiz it wasn’t all real. I run from anything or anyone who has the potential to be good or positive or real
In my life. I tried to run from god, in my mind I did, 
Someday I will scream your name 
Someday they will all know 
Someday the real you will show 

I’m not sure I ever really knew how to breathe, 
I’m not sure I ever really knew what freedom is. I can’t even look in a mirror any more. Every picture I take or have taken I pic apart. I have became hardened. 

Someday I will scream your name 
Someday they will all know 
Someday the real you will show.

Drugs I did them, depression got that, a form of ptsd? I have that, self harm I have done that. You were going to be the start athlete you could have had anyone you wanted but it wasn’t enough for you. I know I’m not the only one, I wasn’t the only little girl.i was four years old. I know there were little boys to. 

Someday I will scream your name 
Someday they will all know 
Someday the real you will show

metal