Intro (spoken / low growl)
I don’t rest.
I don’t sit still.
I clock in
so I don’t have to feel.
Verse 1 (tight, chugging riff)
Another shift, another call
Another body, another wall
I say yes before I breathe
Anything to not be me
Sirens louder than my thoughts
Blood and fear I know the cost
I can function in the wreckage
I fall apart when there’s no damage
Pre-Chorus (building tension)
I stabilize, I compartmentalize
I swallow everything that screams inside
You call it strength, I call it逃
Running from myself in uniform
Chorus (full scream)
IT’S EASIER TO CARRY YOUR PANIC
THAN SIT WITH THE SHIT IN MY HEAD
I CAN HOLD YOU WHILE YOU’RE BREAKING
BUT I’M TERRIFIED OF MY OWN BED
I RUN TOWARD THE NOISE, THE BLEEDING
THE SCREAMS, THE WORST DAYS OF YOUR LIFE
BECAUSE IF I SLOW DOWN FOR A SECOND
I MIGHT NOT SURVIVE MINE
Verse 2 (groove-heavy, aggressive)
I know the steps, I know the signs
How to keep you breathing, buy you time
I don’t shake when lives are on the line
But silence cuts me open every time
I work until I’m numb
Call it purpose, call it love
Truth is buried underneath
I stay busy so it doesn’t speak
Pre-Chorus (half-scream)
They say “how do you do it?”
Like I’m not barely standing
I’m just better at hiding
When everything’s collapsing
Chorus (repeat, heavier)
IT’S EASIER TO CARRY YOUR PANIC
THAN ADMIT I’M NOT OKAY
I CAN SAVE YOU FROM YOUR WORST NIGHT
BUT I CAN’T KEEP MINE AT BAY
I BLEED QUIET, I SMILE STRAIGHT
I CLOCK IN TO DISSOCIATE
BECAUSE IF I FACE WHAT I’M FEELING
I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S LEFT OF ME
Breakdown (slow, crushing)
Clock in.
Shut down.
Feel nothing.
Save them now.
Hands steady.
Heart hollow.
I’ll deal with it
Tomorrow.
(pause)
There is no tomorrow.
Bridge (spoken → scream)
You see a uniform.
You don’t see the wreckage underneath.
You see calm hands.
You don’t see how bad I need sleep.
I carry death.
I carry grief.
I carry everyone but me.
Final Chorus (last, desperate scream)
IT’S EASIER TO CARRY YOUR PANIC
THAN SIT ALONE WITH MY OWN
I KNOW HOW TO FIX THE DAMAGE
JUST NOT THE SHIT I CALL HOME
I’M NOT A HERO, I’M A DISTRACTION
FROM EVERYTHING I CAN’T FEEL
SO I’LL KEEP SAVING EVERYONE ELSE
UNTIL I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S REAL
Outro (low, exhausted growl)
I don’t clock in for the overtime.
I clock in
so I don’t fall apart.