Clock in, black out

Intro (spoken / low growl)

I don’t rest.

I don’t sit still.

I clock in

so I don’t have to feel.

Verse 1 (tight, chugging riff)

Another shift, another call

Another body, another wall

I say yes before I breathe

Anything to not be me

Sirens louder than my thoughts

Blood and fear I know the cost

I can function in the wreckage

I fall apart when there’s no damage

Pre-Chorus (building tension)

I stabilize, I compartmentalize

I swallow everything that screams inside

You call it strength, I call it逃

Running from myself in uniform

Chorus (full scream)

IT’S EASIER TO CARRY YOUR PANIC

THAN SIT WITH THE SHIT IN MY HEAD

I CAN HOLD YOU WHILE YOU’RE BREAKING

BUT I’M TERRIFIED OF MY OWN BED

I RUN TOWARD THE NOISE, THE BLEEDING

THE SCREAMS, THE WORST DAYS OF YOUR LIFE

BECAUSE IF I SLOW DOWN FOR A SECOND

I MIGHT NOT SURVIVE MINE

Verse 2 (groove-heavy, aggressive)

I know the steps, I know the signs

How to keep you breathing, buy you time

I don’t shake when lives are on the line

But silence cuts me open every time

I work until I’m numb

Call it purpose, call it love

Truth is buried underneath

I stay busy so it doesn’t speak

Pre-Chorus (half-scream)

They say “how do you do it?”

Like I’m not barely standing

I’m just better at hiding

When everything’s collapsing

Chorus (repeat, heavier)

IT’S EASIER TO CARRY YOUR PANIC

THAN ADMIT I’M NOT OKAY

I CAN SAVE YOU FROM YOUR WORST NIGHT

BUT I CAN’T KEEP MINE AT BAY

I BLEED QUIET, I SMILE STRAIGHT

I CLOCK IN TO DISSOCIATE

BECAUSE IF I FACE WHAT I’M FEELING

I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S LEFT OF ME

Breakdown (slow, crushing)

Clock in.

Shut down.

Feel nothing.

Save them now.

Hands steady.

Heart hollow.

I’ll deal with it

Tomorrow.

(pause)

There is no tomorrow.

Bridge (spoken → scream)

You see a uniform.

You don’t see the wreckage underneath.

You see calm hands.

You don’t see how bad I need sleep.

I carry death.

I carry grief.

I carry everyone but me.

Final Chorus (last, desperate scream)

IT’S EASIER TO CARRY YOUR PANIC

THAN SIT ALONE WITH MY OWN

I KNOW HOW TO FIX THE DAMAGE

JUST NOT THE SHIT I CALL HOME

I’M NOT A HERO, I’M A DISTRACTION

FROM EVERYTHING I CAN’T FEEL

SO I’LL KEEP SAVING EVERYONE ELSE

UNTIL I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S REAL

Outro (low, exhausted growl)

I don’t clock in for the overtime.

I clock in

so I don’t fall apart.