Verse 1 (Soft, confessional – pop-punk emo vibe)
Mama dropped me off, didn’t wanna look back
Kept my sister close, I was the one she forgot
Said love was conditional, based on who she was with
Told a fifteen-year-old she’d be dead to her if
She ever got pregnant from a nightmare she didn’t choose
Guess I learned real young what not to expect from you
Burn on my arm, still burns in my head
Funny how the scars grow up with you instead
Pre-Chorus (Builds)
I learned how to be quiet in rooms full of screams
How to smile through shit nobody should see
I was a kid trying to survive adult sins
They broke me in places I didn’t know existed
Chorus (Big, emotional – Don’t Freak Out energy)
Don’t look at me like I’m crazy for bleeding inside
I’ve been fighting wars I don’t post online
If I seem cold, it’s ‘cause I learned how to freeze
When nobody showed up for the kid in me
I don’t need saving, I just need you to see
I’m not dramatic, I’m traumatized, please
I’m still here, yeah I’m still here
Even when I don’t wanna be
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Verse 2 (Darker, faster delivery)
Dad in prison, taught me what men could be
Then he came back talking reckless ‘bout me
Left again like I was nothing to lose
Left me with memories I never asked to choose
Cigarette burn, dresser on my chest
Hands on my body I didn’t consent
Family tree poisoned at the roots
So I learned to numb myself just to get through
Pre-Chorus 2
They told me it was my fault when I was hurt
Like pain has a dress code, like trauma wears skirts
So I swallowed the shame and I blamed my skin
For the hands that touched me and the blood on my chin
Chorus (Repeat, more intense)
Don’t look at me like I’m crazy for bleeding inside
I’ve been fighting wars I don’t post online
If I seem cold, it’s ‘cause I learned how to freeze
When nobody showed up for the kid in me
I don’t need saving, I just need you to see
I’m not dramatic, I’m traumatized, please
I’m still here, yeah I’m still here
Even when I don’t wanna be
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Bridge (Breakdown – spoken/sung, almost whispered)
They loved me in pieces
Used me in full
Called me a problem
For bleeding when I was cut
I stayed for the kids
Stayed through the pain
Stayed ‘cause I thought love was supposed to hurt this way
Now I’m sleeping on couches with my heart in my hands
Trying to build a safe home on broken plans
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Final Chorus (Big, emotional release)
Don’t look at me like I’m weak for still standing up
I carried too much, yeah I carried enough
I’ve been the mother I never had
I’ve been the shield, I’ve been the dad
If I’m still breathing, that’s a fucking win
If I’m still trying, let me call it strength
I’m still here, yeah I’m still here
Even when I don’t wanna be
AngelOfDarkness
