Still here

I woke up to the quiet it’s louder than before. Your name is on the ceiling my heart on the floor. I trace the cracks and memories we tried to repair said we’d be forever but forever disappeared. I wear your old hoodie like a second skin smells like the past I can’t live in every clock keeps asking me why I’m stuck in the moment you said goodbye. I tell myself I’ll be OK but some lies just don’t fade away. I’m still here calling your name in the dark still holding pieces of your broken heart. If loves a war then I lost my shield, but I’d bleed again for what I fell you moved on like it was nothing new. I stayed behind learning how to lose if letting you go is what I meant to do why does it feel like losing you? You laugh still echoes down empty streets every promise sounds like defeat I replay us like my favorite song even knowing I’ve been singing it wrong they say time heals everything but time just taught me how to ache. I’m still here calling your name in the dark, still holding pieces of your broken heart loves a war then I lost my shield, but I’d bleed again for what we felt maybe someday this won’t hurt so bad maybe I’ll smile when I look back but tonight I’m just learning how to miss someone who is gone right now. I’m still here but I’ll be OK. Even if you never stay. I love again just not tonight. I’ll survive this lonely fight. I’m still here letting you go.