(Verse 1)
It’s 2 AM and your voice is low in my ear
We’re talking 'bout nothing, pretending the ghost isn't here.
But I’m looking back at the wreckage, the history of us
And the one who came before you, leaving me in the dust.
I look at the pattern, I look at the vow
I gave my heart to two guys till now.
Two different lessons, two different lies
One came with shadows, one came with kind eyes.
(Pre-Chorus)
Let’s talk about the first one, the one who left the scar.
He played with it, only used it, pushed it too far.
To him I was only a side chick, hidden from the view
He played with me and my feelings, nothing was true.
Used me once, twice, then left me on the floor
Didn't even try to love, he just slammed the door.
He broke it in many pieces, shattered the trust
Left me believing that love was just lust.
(Chorus)
But then there was the second...
You, the other, who kept it for a while, held it so tight
Then broke it when it was fragile, in the middle of the night.
You found the shards he left, you tried to be smart
You stitched it back together, then tore it apart.
Yeah, you tried to play a role
To be the savior, to fix the soul.
But then failed, yeah, the hero retreated
Leaving the rescue mission undefeated.
(Verse 2)
You say that you tried, that the spark just faded out
But I feel like a science project you had doubts about.
To you I was only for trial, a test for your heart
To see if I could love again before hitting "restart."
You tried, but didn't work, the feelings wouldn't grow
So now we call nightly just to soften the blow.
You act like a friend, you ask how I’ve been
While I’m bleeding out from the mess that I’m in.
(Bridge)
(Music strips back to just vocals and a synth pad)
And the worst part is, I answer.
I pick up the phone.
Now I'm left here broken, feeling so alone.
I’m afraid to feel, afraid to love, paralyzed by fear
Because the one who broke me is the one I hold dear.
I listen to you breathing, and I feel like I’m lying...
It's hard to keep myself from crying
When I know my heart is dying.
(Guitar Solo)
(Melodic, sad, and drifting)
(Chorus)
You kept it for a while, held it so tight
Then broke it when it was fragile, in the middle of the night.
You found the shards he left, you tried to be smart
You stitched it back together, then tore it apart.
The first didn't even try to love
(He did nothing)
The other tried but didn't work
(You felt nothing)
And I’m stuck between the callous and the cold.
(Outro)
(Beat fades out)
Yeah, you stitched it back...
Just to tear it apart.
Goodnight, babe...
My heart is dying.
(Click)