Weather the Pain

Late nights, heavy mind, tryna fight what’s inside

I gotta be a better man for the ones that love me

Look in the mirror, who am I becoming?

Drownin’ in a bottle tryna kill what’s ugly

Truth don’t fade when the drink start runnin’

Can’t drink away the pain, gotta weather it

Can’t point fingers, can’t let thoughts settle in

Every night I’m wrestlin’, questionin’

A version of me I ain’t settlin’

Came too far just to crumble now

Slept in cars, I remember how

Lost and found but I stand my ground

Still the dark come when the sun go down

Pain, I been tryna shake it off me

Rain, but it keep fallin’ on me

Pray for a better man inside me

Devil still walk right beside me

Pain, I feel it in my chest now

Change, yeah I’m fightin’ for it right now

Won’t let it take my soul away

I’ma learn to weather the pain

Slept in my car, now I got my family

Still got scars, darkness follow me

Devil on my back, demons on my feet

Everywhere I look, evil I can see

Stay humble but I’m tumblin’

Heavy soul, feelin’ numb to me

Tammy, I’m sorry for the past I said

Words cut deep, still stuck in your head

Never meant harm, I take that blame

Verbal scars hit just the same

I’m tryna grow, I’m tryna change

To my friends, I been outta line

Miss my brother Xavier all the time

Say things just to fill that void

Lost inside, tryna mask that noise

If I seem fake, I’m just fightin’ me

Tryna be who I’m supposed to be

To my family, sorry for them drunk calls

Only time I talk when the liquor fall

Weight on my shoulders, too heavy to hold

Alcohol make me feel less cold

But I love y’all more than I show

Even lost, I hope you know

To my daughters, I love you forever

Cherish every moment we had together

If you saw my worst, I tried my best

Give you the world with a broke chest

Proud of the women you’re becomin’

Strong and wise, that mean somethin’

Don’t take life personal, rise above

Be the change, lead with love

Pain… I’ma weather it

For my kids, for my life… I’ma weather it