[Intro]
[low vocal register]
Hands folded till the knuckles split
I wore the floorboards thin
Mouth full of holy scripts
Teeth full of grit
[Verse 1]
They said
"ask"
So I asked till my lungs went glass
White coats
Wires
That slow red graph
Beeping like some bored clock
Counting down the last laugh
I named You in the hospital light
Tried to pull You into the room
But the ceiling just stared right back
Like it was waiting
For the vacuum to bloom
[Chorus]
So where were You
When the room went quiet?
When the air turned heavy
And the hands unclenched?
I carved your name
Into my own silence
Prayed till my throat burned out
You didn’t even flinch
[Verse 2]
They said
"plan"
They said
"purpose in the pain"
While we boxed up clothes
Found receipts
For a life that won't happen again
I set fire to the sympathy cards
Watched saints curl up in smoke
Every promise printed in gold
Turned black
Turned joke
I used to close my eyes to speak
Now I stare straight ahead when I swear your name
Every "amen" tastes like rust
Like I swallowed all the blame
[Chorus]
So where were You
When the room went quiet?
When the air turned heavy
And the hands unclenched?
I carved your name
Into my own silence
Prayed till my throat burned out
You didn’t even flinch
[Bridge]
[guitar riff widens
Drums half-time]
If this is mercy
You can keep it
If this is love
I don't need it
Take back your verses
Take back your vows
I screamed myself ragged
You stayed in the clouds
[Chorus]
[crecendo]