[Short Instrumental Intro]
[Slow EDM build, distorted guitar feedback fades in]
[Angsty Verse]
I lie to myself just to sleep at night
Fake happy pills, chasing neon light
Mirror says I’m fine, eyes scream “fuck you”
I’m in love with my own fucked-up view
[Explicit Pre-Chorus]
Gulp down the bullshit, dry swallow lies
Call it the truth while it kills me inside
Doctor said I’m “special” — well I’m fucking sick
Diagnosis: dumb bitch with a martyr kink
[Powerpop Chorus]
Swallow that bitter pill
Taste all the poison you spill
Delusional and broken still
This is the cure for my will
[Electronic Drop]
[Heavy EDM beat drops, synth arpeggios swirl, distorted bass hits]
“Fuck it—fuck it—fuck it up!”
[Instrumental Break]
[Epic EDM riser with layered guitars, drums kick hard in halftime]
[Emotional Verse]
Pretend I’m the victim in every fight
Crying on the floor in the blacklight
Gaslight myself just to stay on top
But the high always ends with the drop
[Explicit Pre-Chorus]
Choke on my secrets, spit ‘em in your face
Swear I’m so real while I’m leaving no trace
“Self-aware” but I don’t wanna heal
Truth is the devil that cuts the deal
[Powerpop Chorus]
Swallow that bitter pill
Taste all the poison you spill
Delusional and broken still
This is the cure for my will
[Electronic Drop]
[Big EDM drop with layered harmonies shouting:]
“Fuck it—fuck it—fuck it up!”
[Bridge]
Sick of my shit but I keep coming back
Masochist mind in a panic attack
Swear I’m the hero but really the fraud
Pray for salvation while spitting at God
[Instrumental Break]
[Synth solo with driving drum beat, chopped vocal samples]
[Big Finish Chorus]
Swallow that bitter pill
Feel every lie that you kill
Delusional and broken still
Dance in the wreckage at will
[Outro]
[Slow fade of pulsing EDM bass with echoed whisper:]
“Fuck it up... fuck it up... fuck it...”
DreamyCow
