Comes Down

When the sun comes down, I see my future now, you’re always hitting me up.., whenever you need the love.., but I can’t complain, I always needed the escape.., from torturing myself but It seems to me that I like it that way cuz I stay miserable but that doesn’t stop me from being here to do whatever necessary to keep you happy, but I won’t do the same for me.., cuz I’m irrelevant..it’s all about you…it’s all about you, but you keep on dodging me going off into your fantasies and leaving me in the blue.., it has me thinking what do I do cuz I can’t keep doing this thing..where we keep on going back and forth you know..I just need me a break..oh..when can I get..me..a break..,? I heard you just gotta stay strong but am I strong enough to take the pain that I consume everyday, that I created on my own…, will I ever get a redemption..,?

I get caught up into webs drifting off looking at you, like you’re the most beautiful thing gods created.., but you must be taken and not telling the truth cuz why is it when the lights are off my phone is bright with a message waiting for a reply from me to you, but I hesitate cuz I’m scared to lose the time I have with you.., cuz this has never been a problem for me..but I guess I chose these shoes..I’ll fall in them if I intend too.., I just didn’t wanna be a second choice like always..which puts me into a pattern of more torturing, will I ever get the attention that I’ve been asking, that I’ve been searching for ever since the beginning of my tragic accident, and it just keeps on hurting as I fail the opportunity to make some actions but losing in the process of no passion cuz I’m running low, if only someone would keep me through it..,

When the sun comes down…, I see my future now,